Sunday, August 24, 2008

Last.fm: liz shared Today

Hi there,

liz (liz@computersleuth.net) was on Last.fm and wants to share this with you:

Today
http://www.last.fm/music/Jefferson+Airplane/_/Today

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Farewell Margaret M.

This week I received the news. an old friend, a young friend, has passed away. Margaret and I became friends in Corpus Christi and she quickly became part of our posse. Milena, Tiana, Cheryl, Margaret and I were a tight pack back in the mid 90's. we all decided to shave our heads and started a faux gang of tough girls living in a neighborhood where we were the minority. Margaret was the youngest, and the most alluring of us all. she was a nanny, loved children and loved boys. she shot pool, danced and drank like a sailor.
when I was accepted to PNCA in Portland Oregon I asked her to move with me. I thought a change would be good for her. she talked about starting school as well. so we traveled together with less than $1000 to start a new life on the West Coast.
as I started school and got a boyfriend, Margaret was bored, and idolized the cool skinny culture of Heroin users so proliferate in Portland. they looked like Waif's and started cool trends in music and fashion. We were room-mates for a while, then grew apart. she went down a path that I could not follow. I stayed in school and later moved to Seattle. Margaret remained in Portland where life for her took a turn. A tumultuous road to say the least.
Last Monday 8-18-08 Margaret died from an overdose. Over ten years since she chose that risky path. but within that decade + she battled endlessly with the addicts life. she died with 2 young children, 1 year and 2 months old.
the last time I saw her was in 2002, and she was ecstatic that she had finally quite drugs, mostly, but had everything under control. Unfortunately her boyfriend was still using. I wrote, called and searched for her after that, but couldn't ever get in touch with her again. too bad, too bad.
so long young life

Wednesday, August 20, 2008


alright alright already. here he is, THE MAN OF MY DREAMS. to clarify who the man of my dreams is I must say that the dream began about 20 years ago. I strongly believe in the power of intention, btw.
in about 1989 I did some serious delving into the "self help/new age" section of the local bookstore. turned up with some pretty good stuff.
I learned that if you imagine what you want, what you really really want and even write it down ( in detail) that the universe will give it to you. so it finally happened.
I asked for the guy who is smart, knows how to type (remember this was 1989), wears boxer shorts AND glasses and who doesn't know that he is really cute. he has sat in the back of the library his whole life and has no idea how absolutely amazing he is.

granted, we met when we were well beyond our teens. but he lived in Minnesota and I in Indiana at the time of the intended wish. it only took us around 11 years to find our way to eachother here in the PNW. (pacific northwest)

so, that's it. one less thing to worry about. one more soul to trust. and love. and be grateful for. along with the others who I shall mention in no particular order at some point on this log.

you can obviously see that he, in his now mature state of being, is completely exposed in his lust for life, no longer hiding out in corners with books. now he reads right in the middle of the library. and I love every ounce of him.

ttfn

Monday, August 18, 2008

Slugs!


I have to reconsider the gardener in me. I'm afraid we've been taken over by snails, slugs and drought. yes, drought! all of my hostas have been shredded by the heat and the slippery varmits. ugh de ugh ugh. well, I have some organic pesticide and some cayenne pepper that may save the day yet.
the problem is, they are so cute and magical looking. snails! aren't they supposed to be like pixies or rainbows? now I do see why the French eat them. Die snails! take that! maybe I'll ship them to France.

oh, and this guy is no help either. grass, what is left of it? grrrrrrrrrrr.

Saturday, August 9, 2008

mom

Here is a photo of Trudi, my mom, the night before her life changed dramatically. she called everyone she could think of that night, or emailed them. she went to sleep thinking of more people she wanted to touch base with, but just didn't have time. she never woke up as that same person.
all I have done for the last couple of years is complain about her. now I feel like such an ass. believe me, most of it was founded though.
the next night, May 14, after her heart surgery she had a devastating stroke. and a few days ago she completed her final surgery toward recovery. she had her skull bone replaced over her brain. she's doing pretty well. but she is missing. parts of her are really gone. it's surreal in a way, like thinking of infinite space. where did she go? was she all just in her brain, or aren't we all existing beyond those borders?
here she is now. well this is a couple of days before latest brain surgery. Maybe she will return.

Friday, August 8, 2008

this is why I am sick of dust


I live here! Damn, another reason to leave paradise.

'Alarming' elevated cancer risk in South Seattle linked to air pollution

Trying to make Hummus (take two)

just how do you make hummus without a recipe? well, I memorized the label on my favorite container of the creamy dip. lets see, it's just garbanzo beans, tahini, garlic, olive oil, lemon and salt, right? so logically if I just blend all of those things together it becomes hummus. right. except I don't have any tahini, but I do have sesame seeds, so I will just mash those up instead.

that is why today is the second time I try to make hummus. I emphasize the word TRY. just a tweak here and a pinch there and I should have it!